Today we had our first ultrasound and unfortunately our fertility doctor was out this week but we were seeing the other doctor in the practice. Anxiety, stress, fear, excitement my emotion changed every 5 seconds. Jerrad and I stood together in the room next to Jaz on the table. He inserted the ultrasound in and immediately we saw one and with a heartbeat! IT is only 6 weeks so we didn’t expect to see one this early but hey ill take some good news!
Then he said he needed to check something out and said he saw identical twins. I then lost it. Secretly I would have loved twins and as soon as I turned back around to the machine the room went silent. We all look at the screen and thought the same thing at the same time but Jaz was the one to break the ice.
As if this journey isn’t tough enough we were about to get some complicated news. It seemed as though our SINGLE EMBRYO TRANSFER, let me repeat that only O_N_E embryo was transferred, our one embryo split three times. Yes you heard that correctly there were what seemed to be monochromatic triplets. That means there is one sac and 3 embryos growing. This is something our clinic had not seen before. 1 embryo splitting into twins was rare enough, so 1 embryo splitting into identical triplets was a different ball game and to make matters worse it looked like two of them were overlapping which could cause issues. We were immediately handed a specialists number and told to immediately make an appointment.
My emotions went from excitement, to panic, to worry, to silence. I walked right to the chair in the room and feel into it and immediately put my head down. I didn’t know what to do or how to feel. Jerrad was shocked, Jaz was worried and I could barely function. I know we have had a hard road to get to this point, all of us have, together and individually, but this was a different game all together. I am ready to be a mom, I have so much love to give and this jeopardized that and it terrified me. Once again we had to wait …….
