Anxiety

So the IVF process is daunting, expensive, anxiety-ridden, physically demanding and mentally challenging. I will not dispute ANY of those things.

The planning of the process is incredibly daunting and long but nothing really prepares you for the actual start. And nothing really prepares you for the medicine delivery.

When you get that big box of medicine, it is CRAZY. Luckily my fiance was home when the delivery came and when i got home and saw all the boxes and papers, I started to panic. Then of course I started reading the papers and side effects and warnings and let me tell you i panicked WAY more.

My fiance is amazing, my friends are amazing, my family is amazing, and I am so grateful for my support system. Unfortunately no matter how amazing the support system there are times it is hard to stay cool under pressure and remain calm and not anxious. The medicine is scary looking, the needles are scary looking, the warnings on the medicine are frightening, and panic panic panic set in.

I am trying to keep the end of the process in my mind, a potential embryo. Unfortunately nothing is guaranteed with IVF and my particular situation but trying to remain positive is what I need to try to focus on. I also need to try to find ways to keep my anxiety down, I can only imagine that will not help this situation if I am anxious all the time!

More to come.